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jacquelyn sauriol's avatar

I don't know what to say, my life has come undone too, I find it very hard to relate to the world in any genuine way; at least 'here' we can write about hard things, but out there, to the normies we cannot say much. A lady at the store was in tears this morning, because her sister had died in a state thousands of miles away. Of course I didn't ask, I just tried to empathize. I fear the same phone call from my jabbed up older siblings. Like the last 3 Christmas, this has been a non-holiday, and I am not sure I will want to 'go there' again, it just doesn't seem appropriate. I spent the day watching UFC fights and listening to recordings of Bigfoot howls. Thanks for your honesty Stegiel, and your wide ranging intellect, you writing feels like a jazz improvisation to me. Very Best from Oregon

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Stegiel's avatar

Thanks. A friend jokes that we are Romans in the end time. May be so though I'll take modern music. Molly Tuttle like a Rainbow and White Rabbit she and Billy Strings doing Sitting on Top of the World. Cannot imagine Bluegrass in Latin. Nor an electric lyre. :)

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My Friend Lisa's avatar

I am in Oregon!

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Wen's avatar

I am very sorry for your loss and incredibly horrific experience. Please find a way to push through and thank you for sharing your experiences. On this very difficult Christmas I wish you love, blessings, and peace of mind and heart.

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Stegiel's avatar

Thank you.

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My Friend Lisa's avatar

Why does this all hit the home of my heart? When it comes down to it losing the people that WE mattered to, the ones who loved us and now are dead and gone into the ever after... this leaves us with little purpose. We also lost the stupid assholes who degraded US for not

getting injected. There is one tear rolling out of my left eye. I felt heavy all day this Christmas Eve. I am not the only one. We all share your silent and un-utterable grief. In silence typing with our finger tips, our thumb tips into oblivion. My eyes read tour words that go into my psyche and my heart. What I can say is maybe tomorrow will come. Maybe that coffee or tea will make the day feel new and less lonely. You are welcome to reach right through my looking glass phone screen. I am right here with you sir.

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Stegiel's avatar

And you know I feel sad going forward. More deaths are coming doubtlessly over winter and not one attribution to vaccines or confinement to the horror show entirely. On the other hand perhaps grief changes America towards loving kindness. Another world is possible.

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Jerome Stawarski's avatar

Stegiel, wishing I could somehow ease your pain and promise better days ahead. I will add you to my prayer pile. Jay

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Stegiel's avatar

These are the times all generations go through. Prayer is powerful. Thank you.

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Stegiel's avatar

This daughter is insufferable and we do not talk

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Stegiel's avatar

Too many PCR tests and toxic IV poison. Surgery was done and the patient suffered and ultimately died in her sleep at home.

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Stegiel's avatar

My evolution is from Foco to Human. My political views are based off my views on freedom to choose and to be free to choose badly. Choosing badly is the test. As with stock markets future and past two different things are truly different. I’m in favor at 66 unlike 16 to let a process run and then the population is allowed to decide to go on with the process or object.

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MusicMan's avatar

They ALL must die

Those who preach a peaceful answer will only end up dead. The controllers know only force gets results.

The only way to fight back is by doing the same

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Bilbo'sBitch's avatar

Dude that is a god-damn sad story; Should have been armed yourself and taken out those six pigs and sent them to hell; More people should have burnt down those hospitals

You all know its still not to late, revenge is a dish best served frozen

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RFK-jr is fond of saying his party will not seek retribution; I say hell "Retribution" is the only damn thing that will stop this from happening again to other people;

We know WHO they are, they're the enablers of the COVID hysteria, they're the people who became millionaires during COVID for killing and maiming their patients;

Certainly the pigs in san-fran have gotten theirs as today the woke shit, has destroyed the sacred pig pension

But these medical rats still enjoy their knob-hill homes wearing their satanic white robes in the hospital killing their patients so the hospital can maximize profits

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Bilbo'sBitch's avatar

Yes, I like Sonny Terry, I play harmonica & guitar and like to play the blues on my harmonica;

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Bilbo'sBitch's avatar

Talking about US medical system and black share croppers, their music, and their use as guinea pigs in the USA medical system

HenLA cell line, where Henrietta Lacks was given Ovarian Cancer ( she died ), but they also gave the same Ovarian Cancer to over 10K black women all over USA, Johns Hopkins University;

With HEN-LA they found the world 'first immortality cell line" a cell line that wouldn't die; Since 1950's Johns-Hopkins has earned and gov spent a Trillion USD on immortality;

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The theory on the ENTIRE covid pandemic is that US-MIL was looking for a HEN-LA cell line that would be immortal to all COVID type viruses; They needed to bring 10's of 1,000's of humans into hospitals and given random chemicals and then study the cell reactions, just like they had done with HEN-LA cell line;

It's not clear the US-MIL found there 'immortal cell line' to make the universal-soldier who would be immune to all bio-weapons, but the US-GOV has a clear history of killing 100's of 1,000's of its own citizens for medical testing and drug development;

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Tarn - mutual eye-rolling's avatar

Do you think that they gave Judith the vax?

Hard for you to recover from all that.

And six police at your place!

That daughter!! Bad news she is.

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