On the 5th day of year

Kaiser did pledge to me no diamond ring, nor turtle dove nor partridge in pear tree

The tides seem to now shift towards discharge from her room. Late today the conversation began after earlier in the day Judith chatted with the Kaiser Shrink. No elevator at home. Winter. Rain. Wind. Degree of difficulty returning to home with stairs into building from stairs to porch and only many short stairs with 4 landings and winding stairwell to 3d floor and using a walker I peg at 7.

This with help for me supporting her into the studio.

Daughter Discharge influence unknown. She came early in day at 8 AM then left evidently a bit after I left to give them space. However she favors fast surgery and skilled nursing prior to surgery and not a discharge home.

Kaiser person gently breaking to us parting is such sweet sorrow and no medical reason to keep billing for treatment. Yet, I note, this means continued treatment and nurse visitations with machines and professional sympathy. The machines interest me more than the mostly Asian staff. I dwell on them with wonder. The staff uses the machines for data universally available internally. I thirst to know. Yes the medical record we can gaze upon. Dr. notes not so much nor the interplay of care providers. If medicine were not so machine centered maybe health had a chance but not after Pasteur.

Humans have not overcome the age and we live in a drowned world of shipwreck. We see obvious evidence of a radical narrative shift contemplating the past that favors hazard and catastrophe and a Fall. Only accident we tell ourselves. Not some brutality analogous to our hour brought forth by Sin. Stories of Minotaurs are only just so takes on an imaginative Bronze Age. And if we create Chimeras today these too merely just so takes on the post-Covid time. And then atomic war is confused with meteors and land changes are confused with magic as mountains arise larger than the Andes off the shore of Hawaii facing the sunken Western United States without Washington, Oregon, and large portions of Southern California, Southern Nevada, Colorado and New Mexico and Arizona.

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