A little night thought

Monday to Monday

In some respects I am more fatigued than during Judith’s too lengthy stay in the Hospital to make Kaiser more money. The rage I feel towards the automatons called nurses from two hospitals deciding that IV, and Blood Draw, and injections in stomach were essential at any time day or night and causing incredible bruising and great pain will be put in the form of a Grievance to Kaiser. I know in the Hospital caregiving is difficult. Not easier at home but I am pleased she walks a bit. Somewhat concerned she fatigues easily from walking and sleeps too much. Our life of genteel poverty is now on the very sharp razor edge. Each day reveals a new need that torn up charge plates cannot fix. The mental shift from recent past to full catastrophe living is difficult. Not so much the key aspects of care but emotions. Nonetheless in all respects save cash flow which for the last couple years freezes mid month the caring at home works well.

Since I am a 24/7 care giver paid employment is absurd. I needs must write and submit items for publication soon. Well ya know I did what I thought worked well to gain experience in crafting stories. I lived some stories and was told others. Now I must busy myself moiling over my manuscripts and see if I can emulate the pulp writers I read growing up who in turn emulated Balzac in completing and sending pieces out for publication.

In February 99 Year Blues will be my main vehicle on Substack inviting subscriptions. Lingering Sanity will continue free but likely with a donation option. Truth told I am reluctant to do so. Everyone has the hat in hand. Even the affluent physicians of Substack ask for donations and they get ‘em.

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